Oh Carol!

hey!i am back with another post!(; yay!

hahaha,okay..err.. well yesterday, i decided to go out and have a day for myself..i was really planning

to meet granny today, but those ass holes really ruined me!urgfh!

well yesterday before heading home i went and get some drinks at starbucks..

while i was alone the whole time.. i keep seeing images of a group of friends together..they were really smilling! showing every single of it.. everywhere i turn.. so decided to head of to the yishun dam for a while..

i just keep having tears dripping.. why eh? am i proving that i miss you guys?

no right?as soon as i reach home.. ZOOOMM i ran to the toilet.. cause i know i have to wash off those tears.. just to make sure no one in the house saw my red eyes..

i miss this!)': alot.. real alot.. non of you came to ask if i was okay.. non.. i mean whats wrong with you all!

to you guys the show is nothing but to me its something! i lose everything on the day we first went for the competition! do you care? do you? can you be like those hyper girls who just know how to rock their life?

now then i realise i was nothing.. nothing to you guys.. the group that i really hope soo much i thought can work.. oh well no.. i am really sorry but if you guys are reading can you like think? open up your freaking brain? seriously..

i really wonder .. was i part of the group.. i mean i  i dont know lah.. seriously..

myabe you guys are just waitting for me to pass each of you a pen knife so that you guys can stab me from the back. waitting for the moment is it? so its easy right.. stab me then tell the police that i stabbed myself..

so that you guys don't need to answer the investigators lah.. easy what? kan?

sick of crying,tired of trying

yeah im smiling,but inside im

DYING