EFFED up.

If it's really this harf why am i not even aware of it? about how things are gonna turn out after that.

When his good friend says ; He loves her..

my heart just dropped. it just sank to the bottom. it didn't feel lively at all..

 i swear it didn't.. everything just screwed up.

i don't know why i'm doing all this.. maybe bcause i still care? maybe bcause he made me feel me..

i don't know. it's just hard now.. all about everything..

i thought he won't cross my mind.. but he did. he literally did..